tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79870212067564784192019-11-12T13:30:09.144-08:00Memory Lane has a few potholes in itDon’t read my blog! That’s between me and the INTERNET! — This ain’t no ‘dumpster fire’ honey — Trash fires usually burn out after a few hours! | http://fadingstar.netThe Strangerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03272896812186725429noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7987021206756478419.post-21284651898377039732019-11-12T13:24:00.000-08:002019-11-12T13:24:02.635-08:00Fuck that.I already mean tweeted about my weekend in Fort Lauderdale, I’m good.<br /><br />Already wasted enough of my own brain cells, and some of yours, on that bitch.<br /><br />I ignored a couple calls from the Center, I don’t know why.<br /><br />What department is it?<br /><br />Am I going to get a counselor? Does Scott have an availability in group?<br /><br />Doubt it.<br /><br />They too, have decided to throw me in the garbage and placate me with lies about the phone call I’ll never get.<br /><br />By this point I’ve dealt with whatever happened totally alone.<br /><br />I’m like I don’t even need or want you now.<br /><br />I let it go to a voicemail that I didn’t want to listen to.<br /><br />But I called back.<br /><br />It was their HOPWA counselor, for HIV housing. He had an opening this week.<br /><br />I’m like well, I’m not there and I won’t be there this week.<br /><br />He says he’d like to put me in sober living.<br /><br />Oh neat, a bunch of crazed fucking stepper assholes in their first year of sobriety to treat me like shit and bark at me and shun me for being craaaaaaazzzzyyyyyyyy and then toss me out on my face over some fucking slight or infraction. WHERE DO I SIGN?<br /><br />Fuck your fucking corrupt ass useless and failed treatment industry.<br /><br />Fuck sober living, it’s full of brainwashed idiots who still believe in the system.<br /><br />Or the most crass and cynical of them who want to make a buck off of a system they KNOW is a scam.<br /><br />I’ve been subject to enough abuse at the hands of the so called recovered.<br /><br />No thank you Daniel.<br /><br />What would you do with an HIV+ client who didn’t have a substance history?<br /><br />And needed counseling ?<br /><br />How about you fuckers do THAT for me?<br /><br />What would you do with an HIV+ client who didn’t have a substance history?<br /><br />And needed housing?<br /><br />How about you fuckers send me THERE?<br /><br />I’m not returning to my captors or my abusers. Or their fucking flying monkeys and enablers.<br /><br />Or to anybody who stood there in silence, totally okay with everything these people ever did to me.<br /><br />Or worse yet, obediently picked up their stones and chucked them at me like the vicious and stupid fucking cretins most of them turned out to be?<br /><br />I’m sober. I’m okay. Why the fuck would I ruin a good momentum by going into another dysfunctional and toxic and abusive wolves den full of crazed fucking stepper assholes?<br /><br />Fuck that, I’d rather be high or dead.The Strangerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03272896812186725429noreply@blogger.com